I Wish I Was Dead: Symptoms of Depression, Anxiety & Guide to Beat

I wish I was dead.”- it involves passively wishing you were dead. People utter it without any meaning. But when you are under depression this thought becomes a fact.

Depression is a common and serious mental illness which negatively affects your feelings. Technically depression is a mental disorder which not only affects your mind but your physical health too.

The inception of thinking “I wish I was dead” arises due to the mental health disorders, major depression, and bipolar disorder. Depression ion is the inability to construct a future.

Depression and anxiety behind I wish I was Dead

Generally, depression and anxiety are assumed as same, but people with anxiety also develop depression and vice versa. Almost 50% of people diagnosed with depression also be diagnosed with anxiety. But it is vital to understand the accurate diagnosis in order to get the right treatment.

Through this article, I am going to mention the symptoms of depression and anxiety in details. I hope it will help you to understand both the cases.

Symptoms of depression

I wish I was dead

Having trouble sleeping

Depressed people often lie awake at night or unable to sleep at night. On the other hand, some people find it difficult to get out of bed and may sleep for long periods during the day.

Lower interest in activities

Hobbies are for leisure, but the people under depression tend to avoid them. Suppose a person who loves to spend time with their grandchildren suddenly they don’t want to see them.

Negative energy

The depressed person makes a decision to do something drastic, like killing themselves. They can feel like lazy or more energetic. That’s why they feel a sense of relief when they come to a resolution.

Change in appetite

The people start overeating or stop eating as they are not concerned with their physical well-being. A depressed person also doesn’t take care of his/her hygiene.

Unexplained body pains

The increase is physical complaints like headaches, aching muscles, stomach pain and back pain, etc. A sufferer might feel restless, fatigued, sluggish and physically drained many times.

Reckless behavior

The depressed person starts substance abuse, reckless driving, dangerous sports, etc. He/she may feel difficulty in decision making or remembering things.

Symptoms of anxiety

Anxiety is a normal response to a stressful life event like moving, changing jobs, financial crisis, etc.

Excess worries

The worry is associated with an anxiety disorder that occurs for at least six months and difficult to control. The worry is severe and intrusive that makes difficult to concentrate and accomplish daily tasks.

Restlessness

This is one of the common symptoms of anxiety, especially in children and teenagers. When you become restless you feel an uncomfortable urge to move. Anyone facing restlessness for more than six months it is the sign of restlessness.

Fatigue

Anxiety is commonly associated with hyperactivity. Fatigue depends on person to person some can follow anxiety attack or while others the fatigue can be chronic.

Concentrate difficulty

As per the study, 157 children and teens found that more than two-thirds face difficulty concentrating. Anxiety interrupts working memory, which is responsible for holding short-term information.

Trouble in staying asleep

Sleep disturbance like walking in the middle of the night and having trouble falling asleep. Insomnia and anxiety are strongly linked, it is unclear whether insomnia contributes to anxiety or vice versa.

Panic attacks

It is an extreme fear which is typically accompanied by a rapid heartbeat, shaking, shortness of breath, fear of dying, nausea, etc. An anxiety disorder may be responsible for panic attacks.

10 Utilitarian Ways to Cope With I wish I was Dead

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There exist many causes of suicide which lead to this terrible thought I wish I was dead. And, it is a common issue these days. How to overcome such thought? Are you fighting with such thoughts? We are sure if you use the below-mentioned tips, you will see the positive results soon.

1. Encourage social connection

A depressed child tends to withdraw from their friends and activities which they used to enjoy. You need to help him/her to reconnect the same.

2. Focus on your child

Set aside daily to talk when you can focus on your teen without any distraction to try multi-task. A face to face interaction plays a great role in reducing the depression of your child. Keep in mind the depression will not make things worse, but your support can make the difference.

3. Encourage their interests

Suggest activities like sports, an art class, a dance or music class can encourage your child to show their interest and talent. It will help them to regain their enthusiasm.

4. Promote Volunteerism

Help your little one to find a reason they are interested in and that gives them a sense of purpose. Being a parent if you volunteer them it will increase your bonding experience.

5. A regular exercise

Keep your child moving, plan at least an hour activity daily. Think outside the box dancing, shooting, riding bikes is beneficial for its physical as well as mental health.

6. Provide a balanced diet

Make sure your little one is getting the optimum food for their brain health. The foods like healthy fats, fresh produce and quality protein help with mood support. Eating sugary and starchy food results in depressed mind.

7. Encourage good sleep

A teen needs more sleep as compared to an adult. For the optimal function of the body and mind, your child needs to sleep 9-10 hours per night. Make sure that your child is not staying up until all hours at the cost of much-needed mood supporting rest.

8. Help them to solve their problems

Write the problem at the top of the page and ask your child to think about its solutions. You also add some new ideas to the end. In this way, they feel they have worries and try to find the solution one by one.

9. Depression treatment

A depressed teenager goes through treatment you must be there to listen and offer the support. So that your teenager needs to know that they are valued.

10. Be patient

Last but foremost, patience is the key to success! As a parent, you also need to take care of children to share their problems.

None of the above method going to affect in a single day. But the cumulative effect of them will make you feel better. It is up to you and only you to create the future you want. Remember no matter what the situation is someone might be facing a situation worse than you and they have overcome their obstacles.

17 thoughts on “I Wish I Was Dead: Symptoms of Depression, Anxiety & Guide to Beat”

  1. Blah blah blah “life is worth living” gimme a break some peoples lives are so bleak and not worth living! Imagine no matter what you do you still dont have any friends or anyone else in your life to support you. Im 35 never been on a second date and have no chance of a significant other. Who gives a shit if i have a good job and pay my bills on time, none of this matters without a mate. So all of you folks telling us its not worth it to end it maybe you should realize some people have something to live for and some people dont. Quit lecturing folks that dont want to be here anymore

    • Hey Blake. Don’t feel that you are alone. I am definitely with you. Although I am from another country, I think I understand you. I feel the same thing. Please don’t do anything stupid. Just remember that someone cares for you. At least, I care. Please shoot an email to [email protected] . I feel the same way or at least I think. I am now so drunk and I just want to die. I think I can at least sympathize you. Please know that someone loves you although they do not know you personally.

    • Hi Blake,
      Even people with so much to live for can feel miserable and worthless. What makes it worse is that you know all these people depend on you and love you and all you can do is pretend you don’t want to die, while all the while you feel you’re poisoning their lives subconsciously with your own internal misery.
      I’m assuming one solution is to learn to be your own best friend, which is very easy to say but certainly takes time and self love to achieve.
      I don’t ever underestimate the pain and suffering others go through, eventhough they are trying very very hard to be “normal” and have some internal peace.

      I hope you find what you are looking for.

      (Medical HealthCare – thank you for the article)

  2. Blake, I wish I was dead too. since I was a child, I felt worthless, I still do now, despite having a relatively successful business, my parents are wealthy and only care about their money, and have been self absorbed. As long as their kids were still breathing when they reached 21 years old, they figure they did their job, and were good parents.
    I never learned how to love, I never sat on my mother’s lap, or had her read me a book, or come to a school play, I hate being hugged or touched.
    My son killed himself a couple of years ago. I feel guilty, he inherited depression from me. My husband lost an infant to SIDS from a previous marriage many years ago and will not give me any slack or empathy, he says’ “your son is dead, he isn’t coming back, get over it.”
    knowing other people have equal or worse problems does not lessen our own feelings. Blake, I think I kinda know how you feel, and am sorry. Sorry for everyone who struggles and suffers.
    I do not have a plan for suicide, but think about it daily and know that eventually taking my own life will be the way I go, it wont be old age, that’s for sure.

  3. I found this site because I’m down in the dumpers myself. I had cancer, had all my female parts taken away and now I have to face the possibility of cancer again. I don’t feel well. I suffer from debilitating headaches and hot flashes from HELL because they took my ovaries out.
    My mother died about 5 months ago. I wish god had taken me instead. This whole life sucks.

  4. I find myself going over my suicide note all the time, or going over the funeral (I know it’s strange, but I find some odd comfort in hoping that a lot of people would attend my funeral…) I haven’t fantasized about the method of killing myself (which I suppose is its own small victory), but I always find myself whispering or thinking that I wished I were dead.

    I just find myself wandering aimlessly through life. I’m trying really hard to choose the right path, but even when I’m on it I find that anxiety, depression, hopelessness, and loneliness are never far behind. And that somehow makes it all worse. That no matter what I do, it will never be enough. I’ll always be alone, I’ll always hate myself. I’ll always be searching for that meaning or purpose, but never find it.

    All I want to do is sleep, because it hurts less when I’m asleep. And part of me just doesn’t want to wake up.

    I’m sorry. I’m just fighting myself all the time, and I’m just getting tired. I want to believe that I have potential, that I have a future, that I can be loved and love in return. But more and more I’m starting to believe that it’s just not possible. That it’s easier just to fall asleep now. That maybe I’m just not meant to be here.

    Thanks for writing this article. Thanks for being a small light in the darkness. Thanks for letting me cry out when all I want to do is hide away and be left alone (which is its own whirlpool of despair). Thanks for being light and love when so many of us are consumed with darkness and pain.

    Sincerely yours,
    A friend.

  5. my parents are too shitty and dont realize my depression.
    they hurt my fucking feelings without thinking and i cant even stand a school day without others kicking me off.

  6. @Blake Amen to that. I’m in total agreement. Most people are just afraid to die because of that bullcrap of if you commit suicide you will go to hell. IMO there is no such thing as hell. Even if there is some people are already living in hell. Regardless. People like me who are going thru the death of a loved one. My mom passed away almost two months ago and l am living proof of feeling that life isn’t worth living. I won’t even bother with speaking with a therapist due to the only thing she will ask me is if i’m suicidal. Every night l go to sleep l pray that l never wake up. I’m depressed, sad and even angry. Angry at God for taking my mom & my mom for leaving me when l need her more now than ever. l myself is suicidal figuring out which way to go. Pills don’t work unless maybe along with hard liquor. Hanging. I’m not about to go out in front of a 18 wheeler because that won’t work. Just end up being paralyzed. A gun is a perfect way to go but I’m having a hard time getting one. I totally feel now that my mom is gone that life isn’t worth living for. She was my rock. l realize no one will love you unconditionally and have your back 100% like your mom will. Where i’m at now is on a constant wonder being angry and frustrated at God wondering why don’t he just let me fucking die! I’m at the point to where if he won’t take my life l surely will. Life is about choices isn’t it? Well it’s my life and my choice to end it.

  7. There is no one that really cares, they say they do cause that is the right thing to say, but the one time I built up the courage to contact a depression help group (www.sadag. org) the VERY first thing they asked was who was my medical aid with, I know they need to make money to survive but really, that is their first concern, how about assisting with the problem and then asking for those details.
    Yes I have medical aid but if that is what the organisations are primarily interested in then they do not have your best interest at heart.

  8. I simply hate everything about my life its currently 4:30 am and I cant sleep I have work at 8 am I hate my workplace… i sleep alone every night because my boyfriend of 7 yrs is in the coach sleeping g or doing work… we aren’t affectionate anymore at least I think we were at some point in our relationship.. we definitely dont share any emotional connection anymore we dont even have sex…. I’m unable to support my parents financially as I dont make enough money to do so… and I have to live each day knowing my mum doesnt have anything to eat… I’m in a decent job that pays enough but my financial obligations are just too much and no my bf doesnt help me out .. since I was a child I’ve always wondered why my mother brought me in this world I just dont have the courage to kill my self yet although I’m working on it… soon I’ll end it for good.

  9. The same thing also happens to me. They always blame and mad at me. I feel like I should have not born into this world. Now I cant even see the slightest hope in this world, but i am still hoping things gonna be better. Every night, I cry on the bed.

    I really hope all of us could be back to our old wonderful life.

    (sorry for bad english)

  10. I wish I knew what it was like to be truly happy in my life. I do have moments of happiness but they are short-lived. I don’t remember when I first started feeling depressed or anxious… I’m sure it must have been when I was 3 or 4 although I wasn’t officially diagnosed til I was 13. I have often wanted to end my life. I think about it frequently. But too scared to actually carry it out because I’m afraid of failing at it and ending up still alive but in a worse state. I am usually hopeful things will change and get better… and some opportunity will come up and I’ll get really excited and full of hope and then of course it doesn’t work out for me (why would it?) and my world just feels like it’s all crashing around me and then I just want to die. I’m 42 in just over a week, and life has not really improved that much. I have more confidence now than I did in my 20s (most of the time) and I know guys do find me attractive but I want someone who understands me and someone I have a connection with but I haven’t found that and probably never will. I’m not even sure I really have ever been in love. I thought I was last year which caught me off guard, but it turned out he was just a narcissist and was only using me. I am better off alone, but I’m super tired of always being in a dead end job and always so broke. I’ll never be good enough to make anything of myself. If I’m not meant to do the things I’m passionate about then why am I even here? My life is shit. I know “other people have it worse”… well they can have my life then, cause I don’t want it.

  11. My friend killed herself this year. Another kid in my school died this week. My other friend changed and I feel alone. It takes me forever to fall asleep and forever to wake up. Most nights, I just hope I don’t wake up. It’s been weeks since my last therapy appointment, and it’s showing. I went 38 days without cutting, but that’s out the window now. I have to hide everything from everyone. No one understands. People say they do because “they had depression for a few months”. As if they can understand. This has been years. And my best friend hung herself. My relationship with my family is draining and half the time, I doubt they’d miss me. Everyone says I have a great life and I shouldn’t have depression. Why didn’t I think of that? Some people say I must have done something to deserve this. Who even knows at this point. People are going to lie and leave and I might as well lie and leave too. Promises don’t mean anything to anyone, so all my promises can be empty.
    I know this site is meant to help. It’s meant to give me ways to cope. But I can’t cope right now. I can only sit here, wishing I just didn’t exist. I’m too weak to actually kill myself, but I wish I could. I’ve thought about it, and I don’t even know how I’d do it. I guess that’s a good thing, in a way. I don’t have anyone to talk to anymore. I don’t have anyone to tell when I’m spiraling. I only have people to disappoint that I cut again. All I am is a disappointment to people. They don’t actually care about me.
    In the words of an anonymous person who texted me, I “just look like a trans dude” who “stinks and desperately needs a shower”. People don’t like me, high school is the suckiest time in my life, and I don’t have a reason anymore.
    I guess I can’t do it myself, I’m way too scared. But I don’t think I’d mind if I got hit by a truck. I don’t know. My family’s big into that “religion” stuff; if I die, they’ll just tell everyone I’m happy in Heaven and celebrating my life with God. I don’t have a way to tell them that I’m probably gonna end up in Hell, if I go anywhere at all. I don’t even care anymore, I just want it to stop.

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